Oblivious denial that led to my latest weight gain

Hello my Darlings and welcome to Mum Dee Does. I am Dee, a mum who does (it all), and today I am exploring what led to the latest increase of my weight.

I lived in utter oblivion and denial about my weight since before giving birth to my little precious Ronnie. I used every excuse under the sun to justify why I needed that extra pack of biscuits or a midnight snack (most commonly a whole pizza all to myself!)... After all, I was pregnant…  I was breastfeeding… I was not sleeping very well… I was stressed finding my new role and purpose in life as a parent... I was fighting off depression… I was… I was... A new excuse on my lips, a new bar of chocolate for a lifetime on my hips! And so it went on for the best part of two years.

​You must also remember that I live on a very remote island in Orkney, spending most of my time tittivating on various projects inside my own house, not going out much, not seeing many people. James (husband) didn’t count, because whilst he may have tried to suggest a few changed here and there, he was not the one waking up to feed the baby, he was not the one used as a punch bag when the baby was teething - he had no authority to tell me how to handle the new-found role and stress of motherhood so I allowed myself to ignore any concerns he may have expressed. I did not have the same usual social pressures that you may be facing in school, in work or in your local community to conform, compete and fit in.  I also disappeared from Happy Homestead YouTube channel after mothering hormones flooded my brain and privacy and security for me and my baby became a priority. All these factors meant that there was nobody who could drop a comment about choosing healthier lunch options or innocently imply that it was high time to check out that new gym around the corner.

​That’s another good point - there are no gyms, pools or personal trainers on my island! Needless to say that I went on binging on food (and especially sugar, an addict that I am!) unhindered and unchallenged. Oblivious and in denial.

​Until last Monday! Last Monday was the first time I faced the camera lens in quite some time, as I was now ready to come out of hiding and announce MumDeeDoes as my new creative project. When I looked back on the footage and saw the triple chins, the beach-ball cheeks and puffed up eyes I did not recognise that as myself. They say the camera adds a few pounds, but that was something else. A real wake up call. A reminder that despite all the excuses, justifications and circumstances the actual fact was that I simply stopped looking after my own health, given into my sugar cravings, lost control and let myself “go”, as they say… 

But it is now time to regain the reigns, turn it around and change. Ron deserves that. I deserve it too.

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​​​It’s been a pleasure! My name is Dee, and I am a mum who does. Ta ta for now.

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